"We all leave one another.
We die, we change
- it’s mostly change
- we outgrow our best friends;
but even if I do leave you,
I will have passed on to you
something of myself;
you will be a different person
because of knowing me;
it’s inescapable…"
— Edna O'Brien, Girl With Green Eyes

DeSousa. 19. Degrassi. Grade 12.

Outsider. Leader. Protector.

Currently working my ass off at two jobs.

Dreaming of getting away from here.

NEXT

sylviaplathwrites:

― aesthetic for the survivor;

Temper us in fire,
and we grow stronger. 

When we suffer,
we survive.

So, summer break, it’s suppose to be fun and relaxing… right..? Or am I suddenly remembering it wrong and it’s suppose to be filled with this much stress?

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posted 7 years ago with 6 notes

lopacini:

I went way too hard at the gym and I’m now unbelievably sore. If someone wants to bring me some snacks it’d be greatly appreciated.

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I wouldn’t suggest snacks after an intense workout. But I mean, whatever, it’s just you.

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Eli:  laughed as she hit him, shaking his head. "Mainly you," he answered jokingly as his expression softened, smiling down at her lovingly. As he fondled her breasts, he was incredibly pleased with the sounds she made, and pleased with himself for causing them. Leaning close to her ear, he whispered, "You have the most perfectly shaped, round, wonderful breasts." After he'd cared for her nipples, he moved his lips up her chest, kissing along her collarbone and up her neck. Glancing up as their eyes met, her words made him exhale in excitement as his hands quickly moved to undo the button and zipper before tugging her shorts down and off her ankles. His eyes settled on the small piece of material that was left covering her body before they darted back up to meet hers, gazing at her like an eager puppy. He slowly moved himself closer to her, letting his lower body press down against hers slightly. "I make you crazy?" He whispered seductively before leaning in to nibble her lip gently. "Good, because you make /me/ crazy. The good kind." He brought one hand between them, moving it slowly down her midriff and over the material of her panties until it snaked between her legs, rubbing gently.

Bianca:  could feel her skin heat up as he lips moved towards her ear, laughing at his words and quickly leaning in to kiss his cheek, "Oh hush up, dork." Her head lolled back, closing her eyes and savoring the feel of his lips on her collarbone, then her neck. Lazily opening her eyes, she was met with the sight of his stunning eyes and she couldn't help a loving sigh as her hands reached up to cup his cheeks. She lifted her hips when she felt him pulling off her shorts, feeling the air hit the wet spot on her underwear. Her fingers threaded through his hair, watching as he looked down before looking at her again, laughing softly at his expression. She opened her legs wider as he softly pressed his weight down on her, shuddering as her body reacted to the feeling. A smirk played on her lips at his question, her hot breath mingling with his as he nibbled her lip, "So glad we're on the same page." She felt his hand between them, moving lower and lower until he was rubbing over her panties, causing her to moan as their lips brushed together. Her hands slid down to grip his back, her hips rolling so she was grinding against his hand, "You're all I want, Eli." She whispered, kissing him hungrily once more. Bianca maneuvered her hands between them, undoing his pants and pushing them down, feeling the tent that was now evident in his boxers. She felt him through his boxers before sliding her hands up his sides.

Eli:  raised his eyebrows at her response, his cheeks flushing as he grinned at her in awe. "I'll do my best," he replied, his grin turning into a devilish smirk as he offered her a wink. He bit back a groan as he felt the growth in his pants brush against her lower area. It was getting harder and harder for him to control his impulses, though he didn't really have to anymore. Her whimpering made him grin, working swiftly to toss her shirt to the ground. Gazing down at her, her comment made him chuckle, shrugging his shoulders playfully. "I get that a lot," he teased back, his smile growing as he felt her hands run through his hair. Eli's smile turned modest at her compliments, letting out a loving sigh as he took a moment to gather himself. "And you have mine. It's a done deal, and it couldn't be more perfect." He grasped her face in his hands as he kissed her back, his heartbeat pounding in his chest. As she broke away, he watched her closely, his jaw lowering slightly as she removed her bra. Eli shook himself out of his trance, the familiar smirk returning to his lips. "You're /incredibly/ sexy, that's what you are," he whispered huskily before slowly bringing his hands to touch her chest. He took a breast in each hand, moving his hands up and down to massage them before gently tweaking her nipples between his fingers. Feeling the pulsating need in his pants, he lowered his lips to her left nipple, nibbling and sucking a bit roughly before moving to the right one. His hands moved down her curves, tracing his fingers over her midriff and right above the hem of her bottoms. Her skin was so soft and delicious, he could never imagine not being completely enthralled by it.

Bianca:  looked at him wide-eyed, a big smile spreading across her face as she hit his arm playfully, "Oh, you do? And who go you get that from all the time, huh?" She kept the smile as their locked gaze made the world around them fade away. His words were still hard to believe, she still thought he would leave her once they got to college. Find someone knew. The thought caused her to feel slightly choked up, but she transferred all her emotions into their kiss. She sighed softly, letting her chest fall as she relaxed back on the bed and looked up at him. Her breath caught as his hands slid over her breasts, her body moving gently beneath him as she sighed out a moan. The brunette's mouth fell open as his fingers tweaked her nipples, her arms extending up above her head and grasping at her headboard. His lips found her nipple and her head fell back, moans falling from between her parted lips. She squirmed beneath him, her toes curling while her arms moved till her hands were on his shoulders, sliding over his shoulder blades. Her head lolled to the side to look at him, her voice slightly breathless, "Just take my damn pants off, please. I'm going crazy here." She smirked, her body so restless for him.

tinybcll:

It’s hardly been a week but I’m already loving this summer. Whoever said laying around your place and doing nothing but ordering take out and watching old flicks would get boring is lying.

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A few more weeks of that and I promise, you will be bored with it.

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vanzssa:

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Guess who woke up to hands down the greatest news ever? 

I have a feeling it was you.

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Eli:  smiled back at her shyly before admitting softly, "I did, too." He let out a soft chuckle as her lips met his once again, roaming his hands over her back. Her moan caused him to let out a sigh, whispering, "I don't think I've ever heard a sweeter sound." He closed his eyes briefly as their hips moved together, their bodies practically begging to be rid of the remaining layers between them. Looking up at her, his smirk grew bigger at her reply. Before he had a chance to offer another response, her lips found his hungrily, and he responded by kissing her back with just as much passion. As their lips broke apart, he laughed at her urgency, moving his head closer to hers once again. Eli stared into her eyes as they wandered over his breathing chest, heaving up and down. Feeling her hands trace over his skin, he took a deep breath before grasping the back of her head, crashing his lips to hers once again. Letting himself lose control slightly, his fingers pulled up on her shirt with the same amount of urgency, pulling it over her head swiftly before moving her so that she was positioned beneath him. Taking in the sight, he smiled down at her. "You're beautiful," he breathed.

Bianca:  beamed a smile, her smiling continuing to hide upon her lips as she kissed him. She giggled, pulling back for a moment to give him a sexy look and speak in a low tone, "Then how 'bout you get me to make more of those sweet sounds, eh?" She saw the pleasure washing over him as her hips moved against his, her fingertips digging into his now exposed chest. There was a pulsing starting between her thighs and she could feel that wonderful warmth spread through her veins. Looking up from his bare chest, she gasped as he gripped the back of her head and kissed her. Her hands slid up to cup his neck, whimpering loudly against his lips. Feeling him pull on her shirt, she lifted her arms up and let him remove it. Her arms wrapped around his neck and she giggled happily as he rolled on top of her. Looking up into his eyes, her head cocked to the side, "And you're hot." She teased with a scrunch of her nose, her fingers playing in his hair. Her voice grew softer, "You're also the most amazing man I've ever known. You have my heart, Eli Goldsworthy. And I really never want it back." Her hands slid down his back as she leaned up and kissed him passionately. She nibbled his bottom lip before resting her head down again. Keeping her eyes on him, she arched her back and reached underneath, unclipping her bra and sliding it off. She laid her hands above her head and smirked, "/Now/ how beautiful am I?" She giggled, wiggling beneath him.

Eli:  grinned, nodding his head in succeeding victory. "I'm glad to hear that." A breathy chuckle escaped his lips as he scrunched up his nose in return, feeling completely content in that simple moment. Her statement caused him to lift an eyebrow curiously, considering the truth to her words. "You make a very valid point." He continued to gaze into her eyes, feeling a magnetic force inviting him closer. As she spoke, his expression softened, smiling kindly at her. "I told you, I've never been a hook-up kind of guy. Sex has always been something meaningful to me. And you made it so easy to treat you with care, share that passion with you." His eyes shone with vulnerability as well, remembering the times he'd been terrified of ever telling her what their hook-ups meant to him. Feeling her hands snake beneath his shirt, he exhaled deeply, his hands wandering aimlessly along her curves. Eli was surprised by her kiss, feeling her tongue teasing his lips before he opened his own mouth slightly to meet it with his own. Her response caused his entire body to heat up, an excited grin forming on his lips. As her hips met his, he let out another shaky breath as he could already feel himself growing hard. It was incredible, the immediate effect she had on him. Pulling her hips unbearably closer to his, he kissed her roughly before moving his lips to her neck, planting sweet kisses along her skin. Pausing, he looked up at her, a familiar gleam in his eyes. "Are you sure?" He teased, a smirk playing on his lips as his hands played at the hem of her shirt.

Bianca:  blushed as he spoke about their time of hooking up in the kindest manner. She looked down, trying to hide the smile on her face, "I remember always looking forward to the next time I would be alone with you." Her palms pressed tenderly against his chest, her kiss growing in intensity as she touched his skin. She felt his lips part and their tongues collided, causing her to moan into his mouth. The brunette didn't rush the movement of her hips, allowing herself to slowly grind against him and let the friction build between them. Her head fell back as his lips moved to her neck, her fingertips gradually pressing into his skin. She moved her head so she could look at him again, whimpering in need, "Eli, don't make me beg." Leaning toward him, she pressed her lips against his harshly, kissing him hungrily while her fingertips found the hem of his shirt and tugged up. She pulled back and yanked his shirt over his head, tossing it carelessly to the floor. Her gaze dropped to look at his newly exposed skin, biting her bottom lip and moving her hands to rub up and down his torso.

“When do you feel closest to me?”

When we’re alone, cause I can be my complete self.

“What’s the wisest thing I taught you?” 

That I’m worth something.

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